Follow your curiosities.
This has been the theme of my entire adult life.
Although I know I was a fun-loving child with a big imagination, I mostly stayed in my comfort zone. I did the “shoulds” like go to church every week, wear appropriate clothes, absolutely never swear, and treat others the way I wanted to be treated.
It was really post bicycle ride across America in 2012 that I popped the bubble of comfort and decided to take up more space on this big old planet.
I was way more confident and basically believed I could change the world. So I started to.
And then I couldn’t stop my curiosities and forward motion.
This sense of play and curiosity led me to sign up for Crossfit, get my yoga certification, buy a camera + take a photography class at the Art Center, make monthly donations to the Environmental Working Group to help our planet, sign up for an e-course on Affiliate Marketing, organize my life like Marie Kondo would want me to, start a fundraising bike ride for clean water, and so forth.
For the last five years or so, I have stretched myself and created a life that is incredibly interesting.
And at the same time, I have also created a life with very little focus.
Because of my high interest in pretty much anything, I said yes. To everything. And when I bring my enthusiasm and curiosity into new ideas, projects, environments, businesses, and groups, these “things” tend to grow.
So I’ve been taking care of the “things” and feeling like I’m mostly just making sure everything stays afloat and that I’m checking off the boxes, instead of pouring more of my soul, smarts, and passions into fewer areas of life.
Emails checked, ok great. Schedule Facebook posts, good. Respond to all Facebook messages, okay. Get those thank you cards sent out, great. Make time to see family, ok awesome. Set a reminder for six month anniversary, 10-4.
While I’ve certainly done a better job of asking for help (and paying for it in some cases), I’m using the majority of my free time doing monotonous, administrative work.
And because I decided to think about the state of my life…
I’m also deciding to change it.
The whole “pulling back” and “saying no” is top of mind more than ever before, but I’m still not doing a very good job. And when I do a good job, a feeling of guilt permeates.
There will never be a time where I have all of my emotional struggles in check, however I see how much this impacts my present and future and know it’s time to confidently move forward with my responses and/or no responses.
Year 28 is about deciding (which means “to cut off” based on its Latin roots).
Deciding where my energy and talents go.
Deciding who I share that energy with.
Deciding to eliminate some really incredible activities, projects, etc. so I can make more room for leisure.
Deciding to invest in my body and health.
I have a gut feeling that year 28 will be one of the most challenging and freeing if I allow myself to get into the decision flow.
Cheers to growing up, making hard choices, and creating the most magical life as humanly possible.